BACK TO SITTING FOR WORDS AT HOME
|| This summary written on Monday 28th August 2023
After sitting for spirit-inspired writing every day during the recent holiday, I took a short break from it for a couple of weeks, and I regret doing so. On returning home I had a lot of tasks to get on with, including starting the second phase of the DIY in our home. But I felt guilty not finding an hour or so for working with the spirit connect.
Eventually, I did find a time slot to sit, and today’s session is that one. Cards on the table, it was difficult to get started. I sat in the cabinet and tried hard to attune for the connection. I failed. So I tried again later that day before going to sleep. Truth is, I feared that the words would not flow, or be as meaningful as the previous thirteen sessions. A lot of me was now getting in the way.
I had now come to realise that the discipline of sitting every day, or at worse every few days, was an important ingredient for my spirit-inspired writing. In my mind, I knew I had written enough sessions to cover many weeks ahead and without dropping sessions from the schedule, I had no reason to continue for a while at least.
So I had to overcome my fears and sit anyway. It was only during the creation of this publication that I realised the message from this first session back home was more relevant than I had thought at the time.
Fear is an emotion that I do allow to control me more than I should. Primarily, my overruling fear is that of failing. This differs from the “shoulda, coulda, woulda” attitude, I think I’m beyond that. The fear of failing is the most dominating emotion of my makeup. However, I am aware of it. I recognise the symptoms and the signs of this fear and I do work very hard to overcome it.
There is a medical term for the fear of failure. It is known as Atychiphobia - an intense fear of failure. It may cause you to put off or avoid any activity or scenario that has the potential for an unsuccessful outcome. Someone with this condition may be scared to try new things, take risks or embrace growth for fear of failure.
There you go, another medical issue I suffer from!